Thursday, June 2, 2011

There's an Empty Hotel/Sanitarium Room with My Name on the Door

I'm pretty much at my limit as far as stress goes this week. I'm scheduled to take a vacation from work next week, and this morning I got a phone call suggesting that the dynamics at work might change.
I might be transferred.
I don't want to be transferred, and I haven't done anything lately to warrant being plucked from my rightful throne. Somebody else is being plucked. And they want to switch us. Move us around. Flip us over each other.
Not a promotion.
Not a raise.
No incentive to make me think it's a desirable move.
I don't want to go.
My vote is a big, loud, resounding "HECK NO!"
But ultimately, it's not up to me, and I'll just have to deal with it.
Just Deal.

And of course, if this happens, there's the possibilty that I won't get my vacation next week.
I need this vacation.
I've tried to take a vacation a few times in the past few months, and something always happens that makes it impossible to go.
Somebody gets fired.
Somebody quits.
Somebody tranfers.
Somebody gets hospitalized.

I understand the significance of each of these events. I don't want to sound self-righteous, as if my issues are so much more important than somebody else's particular problem, but enough is enough people. It's long past my turn for a little respite care! If I don't get this vacation, I might actually explode.
I'm going to equate the emotional stress to the kind of agony you feel when your grandma dies, or your house burns down, or your boyfriend tells you he's leaving you for an older, uglier woman.

Add that stress to the actual stress I'll feel trying to adjust to a new boss, a new store, a new schedule, and I'll be carrying around a live grenade that could escape my control at any given point.

Have you ever read Firestarter by Stephen King? At the end, where the little girl is so pissed off that everthing around her starts to catch on fire, things start to explode, the lake boils...

That will be me.


  1. No exploding!!!

    Take two conversations with good friends and try to squeeze in a hot bath. :-)


  2. it really should be a crime to not get your vacation time. aren't we like the only country that doesn't get the whole vacations are very important concept?

  3. I have so much vacation time built up, I could literally take six weeks off without missing a paycheck.
    It's time...

  4. Don't you dare let them do that to you, Nessa. Kick up that dust, hightail it out of there, and don't worry about any dirt that clings to their teeth. They can wash it off in that lake of blistering water. ;)

  5. I return your absolutely correct comment: Stand your ground. Put on your mean face.

    It sounds like way past time that you had a break, and you're more than entitled to it. I know the frustration of just dealing with all the changes at work and it certainly comes easier if you've had a break and time to see a bit of life outside it.

    I hope you get your time off.

  6. Ouch, sounds like you are at a tipping point with stress. I hate to say it but I had to postpone vacation several times a few years ago and got to that point. It felt bad, especially family death was part of the reason for taking the vacation. Hang in there until you can take some time off.

  7. Yippee! Vacation is officially in session! (Maybe somebody at work reads my blog?) I'm still not sure about the transfer, but I don't think it's going to happen.

  8. Good to hear, Nessa! Enjoy! And don't think of work. ;)